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I Don't Trust Myself
02:41
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I can’t sleep without taking a pill
And can’t cope with the stress of it
And I talk a big game when it comes to
Survival mode and things
And I keep a history of pain and of my solitude
And I list a bunch of things so I don’t lose my mind
But I don’t trust myself
And you have had it with me
I can’t get with the songs that I write
And can’t bend ‘til my back would break
And I place you on a pedestal and
I kiss the ground at your feet
And I take the path of least resistance if it’s doable
And I smoke you out and leave you hungry for capacity
But I don’t trust myself
And you have had it with me
I guess I’ll go on
I guess I’ll combust
Without leaving such a mess
I guess I will show myself the door
And never return to this place
But I don’t trust myself
And you still put up with…
No, I don’t trust myself
And you still care about me
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What You Think
02:21
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I can’t be sure
The things i’m seeing are supposed to be a sign
You can’t rely
On your muscle memory for things like this
And so I ride
The wave of all the things I’ve collected this time
You can’t be sure
That things won’t get awry or fuck up on the slide
I felt it hovering inside
It left me quivering outside
But I know what you think
And I know what you say about me
So I went
To get a therapist and talk it out (at cost)
Did that help?
Did that settle the score in my head?
Still I wake
With heart racing and mind increasing
Set on high
Fulfill a need
So I gave it up and numbed it all with weed
I felt it pilfering my skin
It left me shut up from within
But I know what you think
And I know what you say about me
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Out To Sea
05:32
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Well, I just felt an undertow in my veins
And it’s not right, but it feels like it’s a game
Well, you just took, you took hold of the reigns
And then we took our exits left/right off the stage
Which one of us will jump?
Which one of us will work ‘till we fold?
It really the begs the question of to whom this bell will toll
I think I saw a glamorous future ahead
But now it seems we somehow slipped right off the edge
Test all the wires
Make them a part of your next move
Throw down your armor
This is what I came for
And if you don’t like me
You can totally tell me
Try to bury me six feet underneath
And if you don’t love me you can
Send me out to sea
Try to wash yourself clean of my body
And I just thought, I thought that you would relent
A gap of space within our fake friendship
Perhaps this stings, perhaps it’s too much to digest
But this is what will happen from your lack of any consequence
Tiptoe around this circus
Something else may lessen our purpose
It might even be a symptom
Of the stuff we’re made of
Chorus
I guess it makes no difference in the end
As long as we get out alive
Though things may seem a blissful way at peace
These blisters on my heart, they don’t agree
Don’t tempt me
Wait and see
Chorus
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Hurricane
04:21
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I wonder how it got this far
My body has run away from me
My thoughts can’t catch a break at any hour
Believe me, I’ve tried everything
The drinks and the drugs, acting out all the scenes
But I lost their plots before they even started
Things are turning a darker mood
I’ve tried to kill the monster hunting me like food
And now I have no map to find my way around here
But my mind’s a hurricane
Sometimes I get glimpses of
A time when things weren’t all so goddamn very hard
And my mother was alive and everyone around me was healthy
Silently I move through sludge
Grab the horns of the bull but it won't budge
And now I carry out my next plan with such trepidation
Lest I lose my grip on this
And the protocol is so independent
I must admit there were a few times I thought myself dead weight
Now my mind’s a hurricane
I batten down the hatches so that I can
Free myself from the pain I know
And then I plan my next escape from all the action
So the thing I’ve learned: much work to do
At least a major overhaul of my entire mood
You bet this full time job might cover me in daisies
Now my mind’s a hurricane
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Howard Louis Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Howard Louis comes armed with powerful vocals and a piano. He fuses sounds of rock, alternative, pop, and even flavors of show tunes in his catalog of songs. His honest lyrics are perceptive, biting, self-deprecating, and naked. All of these qualities are crafted over melodic soundscapes that are sometimes dark, sometimes quirky, and sometimes raw and beautiful. ... more
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