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Survival Mode & Things (Bandcamp Exclusive)

by Howard Louis

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I can’t sleep without taking a pill And can’t cope with the stress of it And I talk a big game when it comes to Survival mode and things And I keep a history of pain and of my solitude And I list a bunch of things so I don’t lose my mind But I don’t trust myself And you have had it with me I can’t get with the songs that I write And can’t bend ‘til my back would break And I place you on a pedestal and I kiss the ground at your feet And I take the path of least resistance if it’s doable And I smoke you out and leave you hungry for capacity But I don’t trust myself And you have had it with me I guess I’ll go on I guess I’ll combust Without leaving such a mess I guess I will show myself the door And never return to this place But I don’t trust myself And you still put up with… No, I don’t trust myself And you still care about me
I can’t be sure The things i’m seeing are supposed to be a sign You can’t rely On your muscle memory for things like this And so I ride The wave of all the things I’ve collected this time You can’t be sure That things won’t get awry or fuck up on the slide I felt it hovering inside It left me quivering outside But I know what you think And I know what you say about me So I went To get a therapist and talk it out (at cost) Did that help? Did that settle the score in my head? Still I wake With heart racing and mind increasing Set on high Fulfill a need So I gave it up and numbed it all with weed I felt it pilfering my skin It left me shut up from within But I know what you think And I know what you say about me
Out To Sea 05:32
Well, I just felt an undertow in my veins And it’s not right, but it feels like it’s a game Well, you just took, you took hold of the reigns And then we took our exits left/right off the stage Which one of us will jump? Which one of us will work ‘till we fold? It really the begs the question of to whom this bell will toll I think I saw a glamorous future ahead But now it seems we somehow slipped right off the edge Test all the wires Make them a part of your next move Throw down your armor This is what I came for And if you don’t like me You can totally tell me Try to bury me six feet underneath And if you don’t love me you can Send me out to sea Try to wash yourself clean of my body And I just thought, I thought that you would relent A gap of space within our fake friendship Perhaps this stings, perhaps it’s too much to digest But this is what will happen from your lack of any consequence Tiptoe around this circus Something else may lessen our purpose It might even be a symptom Of the stuff we’re made of Chorus I guess it makes no difference in the end As long as we get out alive Though things may seem a blissful way at peace These blisters on my heart, they don’t agree Don’t tempt me Wait and see Chorus
Hurricane 04:21
I wonder how it got this far My body has run away from me My thoughts can’t catch a break at any hour Believe me, I’ve tried everything The drinks and the drugs, acting out all the scenes But I lost their plots before they even started Things are turning a darker mood I’ve tried to kill the monster hunting me like food And now I have no map to find my way around here But my mind’s a hurricane Sometimes I get glimpses of A time when things weren’t all so goddamn very hard And my mother was alive and everyone around me was healthy Silently I move through sludge Grab the horns of the bull but it won't budge And now I carry out my next plan with such trepidation Lest I lose my grip on this And the protocol is so independent I must admit there were a few times I thought myself dead weight Now my mind’s a hurricane I batten down the hatches so that I can Free myself from the pain I know And then I plan my next escape from all the action So the thing I’ve learned: much work to do At least a major overhaul of my entire mood You bet this full time job might cover me in daisies Now my mind’s a hurricane


Thank you so much for your support. I truly appreciate every ounce of it. Special thanks to dear friends and family who helped bring this to life by supporting my campaign:

Liz Bills, Shannon Bowman, Troy Cassel, Tom Colman, Scott Frankel, Nancy Frankel-Zacchero, Matt and Melissa Guskey, Debbie Kolodij, Martin Mariano, Susan Paolucci, Beth Resta, Aryan Razeghi, Sharon Sulecki, Sean Toczydlowski, Sharon White, Tim White, Bryon Yoder

110% of my love to Jason.


released November 3, 2023

All songs written by Howard Louis
Music by Howard Louis & Chris Rozik

Produced by: Howard Louis & Steve Harner
Engineered, mixed & mastered by: Steve Harner
Demo track assistance: Chris Stever
Recorded at Bridgeset Sound in Philadelphia

Vocals/Keys: Howard Louis
Guitars/Bass: Chris Rozik
Drums: Frank Coppola Bove

Photography: Colleen McHugh (@colleenshotme)
Album cover art/digital booklet design: See Our Television (@crtv.nft)


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Howard Louis Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

Howard Louis comes armed with powerful vocals and a piano. He fuses sounds of rock, alternative, pop, and even flavors of show tunes in his catalog of songs. His honest lyrics are perceptive, biting, self-deprecating, and naked. All of these qualities are crafted over melodic soundscapes that are sometimes dark, sometimes quirky, and sometimes raw and beautiful. ... more

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